gilows

Aku kurang pasti. Aku pun tidak tahu sama ada betul atau salah.


Aku secara peribadi kalau seboleh-boleh mahu jaga hati setiap orang. Yang aku kenal, yang tidak kenal mahupun yang tidak mahu mengenali aku. Apatah lagi hati ibu bapa atau darah daging sendiri.

Dalam kepala otak akal dangkal, skeleton kepala keras menulang ini, aku sering fikir senang sebenarnya nak jaga hati orang. Orang ramai sekeliling kita. Tidak kisah sama ada ko ikhlas mahu jaga hati atau tidak, sekurang-kurangnya kau tahu jaga.

Dari kamu kecil, congak sendiri berapa umur. Kalau rahsia, tidak mengapa. Congak senyap-senyap umur kamu. Berapa banyak kali kamu cuba jaga hati orang disekeliling. Atau senang dan mudah kisah, jaga hati manusia-homosapien-makhluk Tuhan-khalifah muka bumi.

Susah kan?Mana ada orang kira atau congak bilangan mereka menjaga hati orang lain. Siapa suruh kamu congak? Kan sudah terkena.


Mungkin. Mungkin daripada kecil sehingga dewasa. Kamu jaga hati ibu bapa, kawan-kawan, adik-beradik, cikgu, sesiapa sahaja. Tapi atas dasar apa? Atas tatacara adab atau mungkin ethics yang kamu belajar?


Mana aku tahu? Aku cuma cetuskan supaya kamu terfikir.


Aku cuma tahu diri sendiri. Aku belajar adab dan tatacara. Adab orang melayu. Adab agama. Bagi aku adab yang bezakan kita dengan makhluk Tuhan yang lain. Adab yang juga mendefinisikan akhlak. Aku rasa. Aku rasa sahaja. Jangan kata aku yang buat definisi itu. Sebab lain orang, lain ajaran adabnya. Ada yang lebih dan ada juga yang terkurang adabnya.


Susah. Siapa kata senang jaga hati orang lain. Sebab kalau kamu seorang sahaja jaga hati orang, kadang-kadang orang lain mana pernah mahu ambil tahu isi hati kamu? Kan buang masa? Buang keringat, buang tabiat, buang air. Tapi buang air wajib. Kalau tahan merbahaya. Boleh menyusahkan orang awam dengan bau yang diperam lama.


Aku lepaskan bab jaga hati dengan ibu bapa. Sebab bagi aku itu wajib. Atas dasar hormat. Atas dasar respect.


Tapi jaga hati rakan-rakan. Bukan senang. Kalau kawan beribu. Macam mana? Ada seribu isi hati?Kamu yakin mampu jaga semua? Aku kalau bagi seratus pun belum tentu aku mampu nak tolong jaga. Tapi aku boleh cuba. Sekurang-kurangnya aku cuba.


Bagi aku, biar orang tidak jaga hati kita, tapi sekurang-kurangnya kita buat tugas kita. Biar sekurang-kurangnya kita rasa lega. Kita buat apa yang kita rasa betul. Kan?


Kalau tak betul pun sila jaga hati aku. Ok?


Jadi, apa lagi.


Kalau aku jumpa you all, bisa belanja aku minum teh o ais limau segelas-dua, rojak buah tanpa belacan sepolistrin-dua?


Boleh?



Tak nak jaga hati aku ke?



*mata bersinar-sinar and besow gilows like Ija’s wonderful bright eyes*

Important Note: tak de pape yg important pon. tiada pekerjaan tetap untuk dikhidmatkan buat masa kini...adusss laaaa....bowink seh...kopi dan terus mengopi...sbb die besh

New Interest

now i'm truly fall in love and interested to try new games.

for me it's new but not for others

sudoku and chess

that was 2 new interest

i want to learn play those 2 games

now i'm on my way to explore the rules on play that 2 games


FootNote: good 4 u if U want to test and try your ability in data analysis and also the probabiliy

November 11, 11

11-11-11

what would happen on that becoming precious day??

guess what??

huhu

only me and some of my behalf know about this special date

just wait and see what will be happen on that day

what my heart feel

I've been thinking to write an entry about how I feel right now, but I just can't find the right word to explain every single thing that happen lately..lately, aku suka observe orang..tak tahu la kenapa...mungkin terkena badi lab chem kot....ala lately i really miss lak kat lab tu..aha..lab ke that Doc?hihi...our observer@demostrator for chemistry lab was a professional chemist because he do lots of work in chemistry industry and makes research on it. Memang pro r this person. I do respect because he was equip himself with extensive knowledge. He was Dr Maidunny Zainul Abdin.

may be nak muhasabah diri sendiri gak kot...
i’m just an ordinary+normal+imperfect pearson....opss, nope pearson..person
kdg2 1st impression kita kat sum1 tu ber“beda” dengan personality orang tu after lama2 kite kenal dia...
may be got sumthing influence he/she....we cannot just judge them directly....
we also not 100% good....

** psst Don't Simply Judge People!!!

may be time mula2 kita tegok sum1 2...kita rasa dia baik(+ve impression N +ve infinity) tapi after dah kenal lama, then baru kita tahu dia tu actually dah lain....

before this, pijak kutu pon, kutu boleh selamat lagi....kini baru ku sedari.....

sometimes, kita rasa dia jahat....may be ditambah dengn die smoking ker...die sexy ker...die extra social ker...tp lps knl die br kte tau actually die pon ade nilai2 murni dlm idup die...
dah nama pon human kan....mestila ada humanity....
xsape nak dilahirkn jahat.....bkn ku pinta....

kadang2 si A ckp si B neh x"baik" sgt....tp after kte bkwn ngn si B...br kte sedar yg si B 2 actually xdela "bad" sgt pon...yela..different person different perception....
ntahla...kdg2 aku sronok tgk people's attitude n behaviour....
ha, know what? Now, i’m start behaving like a matured young lady...wah

people....
ade yg xleh tgk member2 lbey sket...
ade yg nk tnjk pndai(bodoh sombong)..
ade yg blagak...
ade yg blurr...i like 2 look a guy wif his blurred face....huhu
ade yg ske mkn...
ade yg ske masak...
ade yg ske cuci pggn...
ade yg ske bsh baju sekali sminggu...(aku la tuu)...huhu
mcm2la...mcm2 ada!!!

1st week

high expectations on us (AT48-1st batch-stud)... this words come true from our history of mathematics lecturer, Dr Noor Shah Saad. he was an Associate Prof and currently his position in our faculty is as Assistant Dean. 1st i tot stdy with him will burden me but that claim was totally wrong when i come to his 2nd class on last Thursday evening. sometimes he did some jokes and we laugh together. so now i feel ok in his class. not like during when i was 1st time facing him....huhu...sorry sir for the bad impression towards you.
** already have 2 assignments with him. individually and partner task.

blur class with our Head of Department. sorry to say. but i have to say this. this is what i feel for the 1st week study with him. i hope that he will change his teaching method after this. really hope of that because this is 1st time it introduce this course in UPSI. it was Statistical Modeling course..no past year paper.. no solid referrence book or notes.. no experience in teaching this course also.. i tot it was very tough thing to handle. but whatever it is, i just hope that he will try his very best in giving us the best input and we grab it as much as possible. really hope.
** got 1 assignment (2 questions-simple but complicated to solve) and need to submit on this Monday (Jan 12, 09)

see you again miss.. this time was our 3rd meeting.. 3 directly semester with her makes me think more positive towards her. but not when i was 1st time with her. honestly, there was lots of bad and negative thinking towards her....huhu... jahat bebeno la pelajar cik yg sorang nie... and now, i promise that i won't do the same things to U miss after this. i do appreciate all your hard work before. i know it's not too easy to teach us with all the new courses. tough to you and also to us. i do understand you right now. research method will be lectured by Miss Muzirah Musa and she told us that she prefer to give lecture in our mother tongue--Malay. and what thing that suprised me last meeting with her is, now she already know how to get jokes with us and saying the funny things during her lecture. ermm for me, it was a good improvement. and dont forget about one thing. she is very strict with handphone. so do remind to silent the phone or switch off it
**summarization on journal that discuss about maths education. search for 2 journal but just select only the best 1 for the summarization. submit on this Monday (Jan 12, 09)

3rd day as 3rd year under grad math stud--session II

i tot 1st week will the very best week in every semester. can having the very sweet moment a.k.a hunny bunnymoon.
previous semester, during the 1st week, still ok. can goyang kaki and some more. comes to 2nd week, getting a bit busier searching for journals and doing some assignment.
but not for this semester.
1st day dah kene psycho ngan lecturer ( Head of Department ) statistical modeling. jalan citer utk sem ini agak penuh dgn cabaran dan berliku-liku for me. ayoyo. help me!!

psst I'm back in TM already. Hate it!!! I'm already homesick and counting days to the next break. know what?? huhu... Today i already got my ticket to back home on this Chinese New Year.... yuhuuuu

Masih Di Sini

Happy new year.
Welcome to 2009.
New year.
New Wish.
New Hope.
New Dreams.
All new...

BUT not me
i am still the one who i am