New Arrival

uish title post aku kali ni dah macam kt tmpt shopping lak... "New Arrival"...haha...barang baru neh...kiki...no la aku just nk ikot theme YES jerk...haha...shop and shop sampai pengsan....eh tu nye hal sabo lu...nnt kalo ade rezeki extra akan ku sertai kempen itu...KL! tunggu aku! haha..jgn lari memane tau KL...tp mmg kene tgk rezeki btol lah this time...aku dah kering r skrg...top up pon totally org support skrg nie....tanak la ckp sal financial aku...wat malu ngan korang jerk...secret2..haha...padahal dah terang2 dh kering..hikhik ;p

actually aku br je sampai umah about 5 p.m plus plus

agenda aku arini

6.50 a.m
bgn then terus solat subuh...right after solat, katil memanggil-manggil dan aku nie jenis x tabah so terus gedebush landing kt tilam empuk aku tu...maklum la...kan dah saat-saat akhir nak bersame die pasni aku dah x lepak kt situ lg dah...my last day @ that place

7.40 a.m
aku tersedar then terus turun bwh...usha my bro...die pon tdo gak...penat travel...drive sengsorang from besut to tg malim(dekat pkol 6 p.m) then die gatal lak nk g sabak bernam kt tmpt die kene posting dulu2...pastu balik balik ke tg malim mlm smlm around 10 p.m die sampai kt umah aku...smoking jap then die mandi, solat jamak and snooozeeee...zzzzz...bgn2 utk solat subuh then die smbg tdo gak...die ckp mse otw die ke tg malim, mak ai...gile romantik die layan civic die...haha...70-80 jerk...xleh speed coz cuaca too bad...mmg berhati-hati gile r...x nmpk jln...based on line putih jerk ngan lampu blkg kete depan...kesian r wei kt my bro...

**borak2 sambil kemas brg2 yg ade tinggal ckit2

8.20 a.m
aku mandi dan bersiap...ala kadar je...alah wat bazir kosmetik jerk lg pon nk duk dlm kete je pon...hehe

9.15 a.m
aku start pass brg aku kt my bro then die wat masuk dlm kete...mak ai...penuh gak la segenap ruang dlm boot kete...haha...

9.40 a.m
salam2 ngan my housemate yg masih ade kt umah sewa aku tu then g Karim corner for breakfast...aku as usual la...nasi lemak kerang with teh o ais...haha...pagi yg sejuk tp aku tetap layan ais....then aku nmpk puan azah ngan family die...die tgh smbg PhD kt manchester...may be blk mesia jap kot...x sempat nk g tegur die...lg pon cam ramai sgt org time tu...die pon duk agak jauh from my table...tgk gitu2 je la...die nmpk makin manis...opss....haha

pas makan g shell isik minyak...abg aku cr stesen yg jual minyak 97 nye...abg tanak yg 95...aku pon x sure apsal...sorry....aku buta skit psl kete2 ni...tau naik jerk...ihik...bwk pon tau la jugak...=)

then my bro ask me where we can buy our bekalan...drinks and some foods...aku ckp jom le p pekan tg malim...lg pon nnt kang aku rindu lak kan...hehe...g grand union...beli sume then abg aku singgah maybank jap...ayat abg aku time msk dlm kete..."yeah! i'm rich!"...aku, "ha?" sambil buat muke blur....haha...abg aku ckp gaji dah masuk...emmm...patut lah kayo...haha

10.30 a.m
menyusur keluar dr pekan tg malim menuju ke tol behrang....bye2 upsi...bye2 tg malim....='( tangisan dalam ketawa

yeah...drama gile r my big bro...die nk bls dendam kes smlm yg die extra romantik ngan civic die then u know what...160...fuh...zasss...highway...sape tanak maen kan...sume segala mak bapak brabus,merc,camry,wald ntah ape ke species lg yg abg aku bye2kan td ntah...tgn aku berpaut dan mencengkam kuat gilos kot kt tmpt pemegang tu...haha...tp still buat muke rilek...haha...padahal cuak beb...melayang...adohai....x sampai 2 jam,dh sampai R&R simpang pulai...haha...just imagine...haha..alhamdulillah selamat...amin...syukur

1.20 p.m
sampai tasik banding...lepak jap...sedut fresh air...jumpe org asli and aku dgr diorg gurau2 sesame diorg..."helmet kene pakai jugak naek bot, utk keselamatan....haha"....aku pon haha gak dlm hati...hatiku brkate, "cewah,asli skrg dh maju r...helmet tuuu" =)
best la pemandangan kt tasik tu...best gak kalo leh ronda2 keliling tasik tu ngan speed boat....aku mmg suke naik2 bot ni...org je tanak bwk aku...hurm...sedey

after a few minutes, we continue our journey

2.15 p.m
area puncak Titiwangsa...Ya Allah sangat terkejut...tetiba kami msk ke kawasan ujan yg lebat plus with kabus tebal giler...mmg x nmpk ape la...just nmpk line jln putih tu ngan lampu blkg kete depan...follow je la...my bro ckp...haa...see...cam ni la smlm mse otw ke tg malim...so, back to romantic mode....80-90 jela td...mmg x berani beb...dgn selekoh yg agak tajam...jln lak mmg licin lah...kabus tebal x nmpk pape...berserah je la td...slow2 jerk...

3.40 p.m
Jelly...haha...kami sampai kt jeli...perut masing2 dah bunyi muzik mcm2 dah...singgah kt dataran wawasan jeli kot name tmpt tu...sblh mrsm jeli je...emm aku mamam kue teow kung fu...watchaa..best! berbaloi tunggu lame...hehe....nnt nk g mkn lg lah..alamak...berbaloi ke g jeli semata-mata nk mkn kue teow kung fu abg tu jerk...hihi...melampau lah aku...

area pkol 4 lebey gerak and selamat sampai kt besut dlm pkol 5 lebey...haha...kt lain xde la pulak air lintas jln...dah nk sampai umah br kene redah air...area alor lintah td ade tmpt naik air...ujan lebat btol la kt pantai timur...totally different compared to perak.....

and now aku online sambil x mandi lagik...haha...x rela gile nk masuk bilik air...tile tejuk wei...haha...aku terlompat-lompat td amek air smyg...blom sempat amek air smyg, kuar blk p amek slipar getah...

Fall For You

ngeee \(^_~)/

sweet right?

bertuah betul ibu budak ni dapat anak yang extra cute and can entertain us naturally

just by looking at her face; wah...tenang je rasa hati ini

::Puteri Akalili Aqilah::

I Love U

I Wish I Can Find The Words

arghhhhh

mlm yg kosong

bosan

nothing to do

nothing to say

unreachable

aku dan dia;

aku text die kt fb; dia tak respon

aku text dia kt ym; dia tak kate ape

sms?

rasenye dah bape kali dah aku tekan "retry"

tak mau2 gak die send msg aku tu

org call leh la pulak aku jwb

asal aku nak send msg jerk, stuck

retry?

YES!!

again and again

it keep question me the same

"retry?"

nak kate kedit x cukop; aku check balance, ade je lagi RM2*.**

cukup la tu

2 kupang je pon nak anta sms seketol tu

nak kene baling jugak tepon nie

seb baek la rase "sayang" aku kat ko masih mendalam lagi wahai inchik mobile

aku tension sendiri

arghhhh

malam yang sunyi

sunyi ku sendiri

sendiri aku berteman sepi

sepinya hati

hati ku pasrah

pasrah dalam mengharungi dan melayani resah di hati

seriously aku tengah resah ni

tak tipu langsung

semalam aku msg dia dan janji nak call dia keesokan paginya

tapi

janji tinggal janji

aku bajet nak call dia pkol 6.30 am(waktu dia) so, kat sini pkol 3.30 am lah

dalam menghitung detik2 itu, aku terlena dengan jayanya

sedar2 aku sudah melepasi waktu itu

OMG

then pg tadi aku lyn FB

tgk2 kat status dia penuh kesedihan dan kepiluan

Ya Allah

makin menebal lah rasa bersalah aku kat dia

Ya ampun

kenapa ini terjadi

aku nak mintak maaf

nak sgt2

tp byk lak halangan

"i'm really sorry abang"

and

i wish i can find the words

"it's ok baby...it's not your fault..."

Wedding- Nov 15

Wedding Best Wishes to my friend~ Irwan & Ayu

"Wishing you all the health and happiness in this world on your wedding"

"Wishing you the best of life today and in the days to come"

"Heart filled wishes on your wedding; hoping the best for you two today and forever; happy married life"

"You two are one of the best couples I have ever seen, may God grant you a happy married life!"

"May you love and hold each other in the worst of times with trust, faith and belief; hoping the best for you on your auspicious wedding"

"I pray and wish happiness for both of you on your wedding day; I hope you are the ones from the story that says - Happily Ever After"

"Cheers! on your wedding, was a great friend to know and I am damn sure that she is gonna keep you smiling, happy and cheerful all your life! Happy married life to you two."

"Wow! you two look so much beautiful together like the doves I saw the other day, I wish you guys all the happiness in this world; happy married life!"

"I have to let you guys know this, you two really look so beautiful together - just like angels (with eyelashes fluttering)"

"Happy married life to you guys and wishing you all the wealth and prosperity throughout your life; don't fight!"

"I hope you hold each other close in best or bad times and have trust and faith all the way; Happy married life"

Wishing you the best from your life on your marriage

kalo aku xleh nak attend gak yg kat Kelantan;

Over the phone: "Hey ! Sorry man I couldn't be there on your wedding day, but I really feel so happy for you two, heres me wishing you all the best of health, happiness and prosperity for your married life"

11-11

ape tu? no umah ke ape?haha...current date ok

02:30 PM jap agi i'll seat for exam... discrete mathematics (TMC2013)

and now i'm on my way doing my last scan....hahaha....dah mcm scanner dah and know what in this short time of mine i do have feeling to know deep about all the clubs, diamonds, hearts and spades... also the ace...haha...kalo study probability; x sah kalo x study psl dice, coin ngan 52 playing cards nie...bapak femes...aku lak mmg TAK main mende alah game ni...ngok ngek tol...wat malu jerk ngan cousin aku yg darjah 2 yg slalu duk layan game ni kt PC....huhu...daa~~~ continue scanning

finale

SLIP MENDUDUKI PEPERIKSAAN (kalo xde nie, mmg xleh duduk r time exam. kene berdiri!kiki)

kursus tarikh masa

1. Matematik Diskrit 11/11/09 02:30 PM

2. Kimia Tak Organik 13/11/09 03:00 PM

3. Pembangunan Keusahawanan dalam Sains Teknologi 16/11/09 09:00 AM

4. Rekabentuk dan Analisis Ujikaji 16/11/09 02:30 PM

** penggunaan BM yang maksimum. Tahniah UPSI. haha =)

debaran semakin hampir. Tomorrow will be the day. 11-11~~

Outdated-->Updated

mixed up feeling of mine and i can't control it until there's rainy on my face *sob sob sob

.... and suddenly got someone knock me thru facebook chat space

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and i got this

"keep smiling and think positive. jangan bagi mood kawal kite. but you yourself have to control it. control your mood. if you keep in track with positive thinking, you can convert all those sh*t things into a sweet smile... there's nothing beyond our control. Do remember my dear, pressure makes DIAMOND... i want to see ur smile...:)"

arghhh...kenape mst ade perkataan "dear"... nasihat tu dah orait dah tapi the word "dear", ish...byk maksud tersirat la...

*ok! think on the bright side; dear=sayang=>sayang as a friend full stop.

I Miss and I Love

Boy or girl? confusing right?? ^-^

in baju kurung...of course a couple of twin girl ;)

when they grew up together...notice that they both r too gurly...

bergaya kah?

pretending**

on their a very happy birthday party...at night lagi tu...

uuuuu...ummmuaah...haha...they both are very good kisser... ;p

suke kiss org

at our aunty place...lepaking without their mummy and daddy...anak yg selalu kena tinggal ni...busy parents ;)

raya time! last year...ini lah kampung halaman ku...desa terchenta!

090909 Part II

Hug is the best way to convey your feelings to your loved one. Sometimes, hug is ALL that we need. Hugs make us feel secure… hugs make us feel loved… hugs make us feel better… in whatever condition it is… hugs is the best medication and it cost you nothing other than the moment of time…

P.s i miss to hug my beloved one....miss amsyar at the moment....

090909

No body can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending

Dia Yang Istimewa

Nobody perfect

Langkah demi langkah diatur menuju ke suatu tempat yang belum pernah aku jejak. Riuh sudah kedengaran walau jarak masih memisahkan aku dan mereka. Jeritan dan laungan mereka sudah cukup buat hati aku kecut. Ya Allah, aku tidak pernah mengalami situasi sebegini. Tabahkan hati ku Ya Allah.

" Tengok ni, kita dapat cikgu baru! Salam cikgu ni. Cikgu ni garang tau jadi, jangan buat perangai."

Mereka datang dekati aku, tangan dihulur, mata mereka kelihatan sayu dan aku sendiri tidak dapat memahami apa yang tersirat dalam pandangan mereka. Tapi beberapa orang sahaja yang datang untuk bersalam dengan aku. kebanyakkan yang lain seperti tercengang-cengang mungkin tidak biasa melihat kehadiran aku di situ.

Tidak sampai 10 minit aku di situ, sudah berlaku pelbagai kejadian di situ. Pengawalan kelas memang tahap kritikal. Handphone ku(cikgu) handphone mu(murid) jua. Surat khabar melayang. Yang aktif, sangat2 la aktif manakala yang pasif, hanya memandang statik di tempat mereka. Seperti mereka tiada di situ. Hanya pandangan kosong.

Mereka di bahagikan mengikut kumpulan-kumpulan kecil dan aku, biasa la kan "cikgu" baru lagi istimewa yang diimport khas untuk hari itu sahaja (tapi kalau ada peluang, aku dengan hati yang terbuka akan join that group) aku ditempatkan untuk menjaga kumpulan A yang dianggapkan paling baik la dalam kalangan mereka. Berada di situ, kita dapat merasakan sesuatu yang sukar untuk ceritakan. Sayu, sedih, pilu semua bercampur. Dan kadang-kadang tu, takut pun ada. Agresif ok!

Sejak mula mendekati mereka hati ini bagai disentuh sesuatu. aku tersenyum sendiri melihat telatah mereka. Aiman Asyraf, sangat istimewa di mata cikgu. "Aiman, cikgu sayang Aiman, Aiman perlu tabah. Aiman boleh. Aiman hanya kekurangan itu dan itu bukanlah alasan untuk Aiman putus asa. Aiman boleh belajar sayang.."

Aku tersentuh dengan Aiman yang merupakan seorang kanak-kanak yang berusia 8 tahun tetapi tidak mampu mengeluarkan kata-kata yang jelas. Memiliki minda yang agak lemah tetapi masih boleh diasah. Walaupun baru aku di situ. Kanak-kanak di situ seakan mahu mendekati aku dan mereka lebih hormatkan aku berbanding guru-guru mereka yang lain Mungkin mereka selalu kena marah dgn yang lain dan aku, belum pernah memarahi mereka ;)

Mereka seakan-akan sedang menarik perhatian aku. Mereka seperti mahukan belaian bukan jeritan guru-guru yang bingit. Tapi kita tidak boleh salahkan guru 100% kerana bukan senang untuk menjaga 20 org kanak-kanak ini yang bermacam-macam ragam.

actually this is not a good task

Aiman dgn ketua kelas

teach them with personal touch

Kanak-kanak Ribena

sepi aku sendiri

terkilan rasa jiwa

apa daya

ku harus redha

ini la ketentuan

ini la takdir Ilahi

aku hanya mampu menurut segala apa yang telah ditentukan oleh-Nya

aku rindu

hanya kenangan yang membawa aku semanis senyuman

resah di jiwa hanya aku yang tahu

sadness

In photo: abg long and ira at back while abg ngah and me at front

P.s. walau apa pun yang terjadi, hidup mesti diteruskan

Son of Amad

buah hati amad ;p

Picniking

still in learning process

Love in Korea

what about this?

seems like she really in the snowy day right?hehe~~~

Personal Touch

hi guys

this is my first artwork using picnik ;p

Just Wanna Start Something

test!

tomorrow going to sit for a test....hard to handle because i'm not business minded so eventhough it just a paper of the way to learn how to be an enterpreneur, still not attract me myself to enjoy that T&L process...bored! tadik aku layan forwards time lecture paper tu...haha...mak oi..x baik btol kan???

study mode**

The Sound of Silence Part II

arghhh

baby! apsal camni baby? che sue rindu sgt nak dgr suare baby... baby x sudi gile nak ckp ngan che sue...

this time the drama play again and easily makes me sad...i'm too vulnerable lah lately...don't know why

baru je pas calling2 with my mom as usual la mesti la nk dgr my baby nye suare yg sgt manje itu tp tetap bajet macho r....br 2 tahun dh pandai bajet macho, nnt besar x tau la nk bajet ape lak.. ;p

mase aku ngah syok gosip with my mom; terdengar suare manje die kt sebelah my mom..die nak phone...my mom pass la kat die...then suddenly ade la dgr suare die tu...

me: baby! syg che sue?

senyap lame wei....sesi pujuk memujuk la..ape lg

baby: cek cu...cek cu...dop mari? huh..akhirnye

me: baby rindu che sue ek?rindu baby sgt2...baby nak che sue?

baby: nok...kompiter...ipin..ipin nak!

me: ololo..cayang...nnt che sue balik ek

baby: blablabla**cerite die yg aku sendiri xtau nak tulis camne skrip die tu..biase lah...the greek...haha

die mengamuk ape ntah...then aku sambung gosip ngan my mom

aku cuak gile beb td mse tgh gosip...

mak balik kampung last weekend. balik atas urusan rasmi...hehe..g jemput saudara mara since lg sebulan majlis tu nak dilangsungkan...ade la sorang cousin mak ni; kalo x silap la die br je dpt menantu 1st last 2 years...and now dh ade cucu dah...mcm cpt jerk...tp logik je sbnrnye..hehe

xde kaitan pon ngan aku..haha..tahniah la makcik dpt cucu

pastu boleh plak die p ckp kt mak aku yg skrg ni die tgh duk cari menantu utk her 2nd son..skrip die lebey kurang camni la.."kak nik mah, tulung gak cari soghe ko ma...nok cekgu kalu buleh.."

sigh! mak aku leh lak p wat lawak ngan makcik tu..."hehe...kak nik mah nok wi hok bosu pon tgh ngaji lagi tu"...makcik itu membalas.."xpo...buleh tunggu..."arghh...ape ni mak??? x remaje langsung p promote anak sendiri...tlg r...i'm only 12 ok! eh nope terbalik...21..haha

mak aku ni mmg nak kene lah...ish...risau gak ni kalo makcik tu take it serious x ke nyanye aku...uwaaaa...xmo2...tanak abg tu...abg amir kot name die...die ensem sgt...aku lak x cun sgt2..haha...ckit2 je...kiki

jgn buat main mende camni....mane aku nak letak Mr F? (you will always in my heart** blushed)

dah la..xnak la pk psl ni...only LOVE can stay..the rest; good bye!

td baby senyap je ye ngan che sue?suke la baby ni perabis kedit che sue...seb baik this month ayoh yie amcha top up extra...hehe...sempena Ramadhan kot...extra bonus..wehee~~thanks bro..really appreciate IT...

Ya Allah....aku sangat sedang merindui my only one baby amcha!

tgk lah die...sgt pandai buat aksi yg macho...haha...teringat ni..aduh

baby majuk ek??comel jugak even sedang buat muke...hehe..x heran pon baby majuk..nnt baby carik che sue gak..pelok che sue gak...hehe

the golfer...silap hari bulan, aku pon die baling ngan stick tu..hehe..he really into sport...he did play all the times...mmg pantang nmpk ball...xkire la ball ape pon..die layan jerk...tendangan die mmg agak sharp la jugak...mmg slalu kene la...mantap...ptg2 ikut aunty p main kt padang skolah...haha...org main netball die duk sebok tendang bola aim kaki bdk2 tu duk syok main netball...haha...nakal ya amat la bdk ni sorang...

yg best..die kurang nak terime pertolongan atau bantuan org lain...kecik2 dh nmpk die nye effort

penah gak la aku terpikir nak "culik" die one day...nak amek die..nak jage die...hehe...tu pon nnt aku dh stable la...ekonomi dh ok...aku nk request ngan umi die...mase tu aku dh 23, 24...so, die pon dh 4,5 thn kan...senang la...time aku keje, aku hntr la die p play school...hehe...die sgt manje ngan aku sejak2 aku balik cuti h1n1 yg seminggu tu...hehe...die dh mule rapat ngan aku...clinging..melekat jerk...hehe...wow...mcm best...umur 24 dh ade hero umur 5 thn...tp bdk ni high maintenance; bkn sbb susu tp baju...aduh..die dh pandai pilih nak pakai which one....yg biase2 dh x layan dh skrg ni...for those yg selalu ngan pakaian bdk2 mst tau la cost die camne...baju rege lain; sluar lain ok...plus both ade la 60++..tu br sepasang beb...erk...kalah la che sue nnt..ish..tp pape pon..kalo panjang umur murah rezeki...i'm going to take you and stay with me...hehe...muaxx baby

The Sound of Silence

not sure with the title of this post but those word just come across my mind then i just put it into this

1st, let start with serious one. to all muslims out there, wishing all of you happy fasting and hope that this Ramadhan bring us some shine.

my day without breakfast; since Pizza Hut just opened at my place, plan to hv lunch there before start our days with no more lunch in about a month onwards...

some short moment;

sharing is loving

UPSI Di Hati

wah sudah bersawang-sawangan dah page unwanted ni. been very busy lately with the assignments, quizzes, tests, lab, lab report and summore preparing for an event.

hari ni ade sesi bergambar bersama bdk kelas. since this is our final semester in UPSI, before step out one day... gonna miss the memory for 4 years "drama" of AT48 1st batch...hv lots of drama between US ok! hahaha

I Was Born in October

Loves to chat.

Loves those who loves them.

Loves to takes things at the center.

Inner and physical beauty.

Lies but doesn't pretend.

Gets angry often.

Treats friends importantly.

Always making friends.

Easily hurt but recovers easily.

Daydreamer.

Opinionated.

Does not care of what others think.

Emotional.

Decisive.

Strong clairvoyance.

Loves to travel, the arts and literature.

Touchy and easily jealous.

Concerned.

Loves outdoors.

Just and fair.

Spendthrift.

Easily influenced.

Easily loses confidence.

Loves children.

Meaningful Unexpected School Break

nampaknya betul lah aku dah lama tak update dearie diary aku yang sebijik ini...bukan tanak tp x berkesempatan la sayang2 di luar sane...hehe..kelam kabut sikit lah sejak kebelakangan ni...mcm2; hal sekolah, hal keluarga, rumah tangge sume lah...haha ;)

Rabu- 29 Julai
satu kejadian aneh telah berlaku tanpa diduga oleh akal. aku ade kelas pkol 8 pg tu. as usual la aku akan bgn sedikit awal dr biase. tambahan pulak hari tu ade pendaftaran sekolah untuk latihan mengajar bagi semester depan utk students Math batch July '06. aku dpt arahan daripada SV aku die suruh dtg seawal mungkin. die ckp die dtg dlm pkol 7.15 a.m so awak dtg lah sebelum sy sampai. since register tu manually, aku kene masuk room die lah. die dh bgtau kalo bdk2 ni tanye nape msk room ckp je nk discuss psl presentation.. mmg nk discuss pon psl tu tp bkn hari tu lah...hari2 lain yg belum ditetapkan tarikhnye lg...hehe...aku x bersalah..SV aku yg ajar...aku just menurut arahan =)

dgn berbesar hati aku bgn pkol 5.50 a.m then terus mandi...haa x leh blah...x penah2 aku mandi seawal itu kt Tg Malim...haha...aku bajet dlm pkol 7 dah nak gerak la ke kampus...ye la kan nak sampai awal...wehee~~

sekali aku kuar jerk pintu shower room,my roomate bgtau..."sue, hari ni sume class dibatalkan...kite kene kuarantin...h1n1...******* bgtau semalam announce kt kolej pkol 2 pagi."

uwaaaaaa.....tidak!!!aku dh siap mandi dh ni...dh la tgh tejuk time tu..gilow...luar sejuk tp hati panessss...hahaha...

calling2 sume org; my coursemate, SV sume la...x jd la g awal sbb x leh msk kampus pon...aku solat...mencari ketenangan...huhu..then terus gedebush atas katil...continue sleeping beauty lah..ape lg...hati dh panas...tdow je la...malas nk pk pape...

make the story short
ptg dlm pkol 2 dpt berita upsi tutup due to h1n1 case...cuti sampai 9 ogos...damn! tiket aku dh siap beli return utk 14 ogos ni...dgn pantas member aku merempit pegi carik tiket...yg x tahan tu...yg g beratur lg awal dpt tiket 30/8 pagi...member aku yg q lg blkg tetibe leh dpt 29/8 mlm...wah...tu la...rezeki2....hihi...mase nk tunggu tau dpt tiket ke x tu...ya allah...x tenang hidop...dgn adik aku call srh balik la...bla bla bla...akhirnye aku selamat sampai ke bumi Kota Bharu pkol 3 lebey pagi Khamis tu...syukur alhamdulillah =)

Khamis- 30 Julai
mcm biasa lah kalo 1st day kt umah tdo sampai lebam lah...haha...tetibe rase sesuatu bermain-main atas chest aku...bukak mata;winkwink~~~my hero landing rupenye...muax lah...miss u syg...hahaha...baby amcha manje2 ngan aku....mase aku sampai subuh2 tu die tgh mamai..aku kejut die nak peluk die pon die tanak kasi tau...sedih aku...hehehe...die lak yg kejut aku pkol 11.30 pagi...pagi lg kan?btol2...still pagi...hahaha...blom noon lagi...main2 ngan die jap pastu br mandi...g dpr...ting!sume dah terhidang...yummy...xyah ckp lah ade ape..kang ade lak yg telan air liur..hihi..alah..masakan biase2 je..yg masak gune dapur gas gak...x gune dapur arang batu pon...x pelik lah...haha...aritu xde ape yg berlaku...just antara aku ngan amcha je lah...manje2 sume lah...hehe...

Lab

a bit stress at the moment since tomorrow's morning i have to force myself to enter the chemistry lab...hate do the things in the lab bring a big impact to me...what was the big impact?the big impact is i have no feeling to settle my lab report for the last week lab...gilow x?esok pagi2 pkol 8 aku ada lab tapi until now i still not finish my work yet...kalo dah ada perasaan tak suka tu kan, kasi la lecturer or lab assistant ganteng camne pon still x jalan lah....x suke la subject nie...aku nye daya imaginasi skrg ni dah lemah so nak imagine structure tu memang sukar lah

p.s: last week my lecturer already warning us. no next lab if we do not pass up our report first!

Benefits of getting sick

after about 25 minutes enjoying shower~~

Aku mahu mobil yang besar

Aku mahu rumah yang besar

Aku mahu upah yang besar

Wang untuk berbelanja

Aku mahu impian besa.....wehee~~my phone ringing lorh

me: ello

caller:assalamualaikum

me:opsss...hehe...waalaikumusalam mummy (senyum sendiri..haa kan dh terkene..belagak lg)

caller:btol ke che sue sakit gigi?

me:uiks...mane tau ni?

caller:abe yie oyak sakni...dio tepon ko mok oyak che sue sakit gigi jak semale...doh gano doh tu?

me:emmm...gitu ah...sakit...denyut2...sakit bawoh gigi...kt gusi tu...sakit pah ko palo...td dah kumur ngan air garam...emm ok la ckit...kurang dh ckit sakit nye tu...tp masih sakit lagi laa...nok mok!

caller:oloh....ngado sokmo kalu sakit...br ckit jah tu...sabar la ckit...dugaan la tu....ko make cekelak byk sgt nie? (eh, tau2 je mak aku nie)

me:hehe....dah org kasi...xkan x mkn lak....x baik tu...org kasi kene hargai...so, cara menghargai adalah dengan memakan pemberiannye itu...hehe (gelak2 manje ckit ngan mamiku sayang)

**kedengaran suara kanak-kanak ribena yang sedang berusaha mendapatkan gagang telefon

baby am:che sue!!!! (huh...bingit tinge aku seyh)

baby am:cha nih...cha nih...

me:ye sayang....baby buat ape tu?

baby am:oasis...awoh wa bak

**tgk channel oasis....alhamdulillah...our tomorrow's ustaz rock

me:baby make doh?nenek suap?

baby am:miyo...tok ki...tok ki aumm (atuk die=ayah aku bwk die round2 ngan motor la tu..rutin pg2)

baby am:**ckp ape ntah...aku xleh tangkap...x phm sgt....ckp byk tapi sorry la che sue x reti sgt bahasa baby...nnt kalo cuti, che sue cuba mendalami bahasa baby ek....

**back to my mum....haha...since raye dah dekat ape kate kite berbincang mengenai topik raye...menarik lg deboom tu...aish..rancak lak borak...td kate sakit gigi..opss...haha...xde la...dengar suare2 org dirindui ni kadang tu leh jd penawar gak..seyes...btol...kenyataan...mujarab gak la...

baby am bising and sebok je nak join che sue ngan nenek...hehe...sweet btol dgr suara baby jerit2 mengamuk manje gitu...miss U baby...geram nak pelok2 and kiss die...

mok:ok lah lan kali pulop....amsyar dh mengamuk kat tok ki die tu...tok ki ado kijo nok wak...ho ingat tu...bo make cekelak byk2...ckit2 jah...doh la koho gemuk loni...(oshhh...mak ku...sampai hati ckp anakanda bongsu ni gemox)

me:baik......okey mum...thanks call...doakan anak bongsu sehat sokmo deh?hehe

mak:emm x yoh doa xpo..meme sehak sokmo doh anok bongsu ni...dih?

me:alaaa...bkn sehat tu...sembuh sakit gigi ni ha...

mak:g la klinik...kalu keno cabut, cabut la...x soh duk sipe la kalu wat nyusah gak...

me:emmm...yo lah...kem salam pelok ciom kat baby amsyar tau....bye2 mok...assalamualaikum

mak:insyaAllah....ok la...jago diri molek....waalaikumusalam

p/s:hari ni aku bahagia...pagi tadi dah dapat phone call dari jauh...thanks abang..hehe...pas mandi my beloved mum lak call...wehee....tetibe ilang sikit rase sakit kt gusi aku ni...terima kasih kat orang yang sudi call aku....okes...going to continue my work...nak wat reference utk report about webinar

gembira dalam kesakitan

New Bestie

~~Touch of Pink~~

Rectify

Thanks God

what can i said is just...I'm free!!!

can't share this feeling...only me myself know how free i am...to be honest, i just pretend nothing happen between both of us...*identity beliau terpaksa dirahsiakan...untuk kebaikan kami berdua...

kenal tp mcm x kenal...dan aku pulak, name je satu skolah tp harem aku x kenal die..sorry bkn aku sombong tp aku ni jns manusia yg susah nak buat kwn...dah kwn, mmg susah nak lupe la...tp nk start mmg sukar tahap dewa la...aku cam ssh gile nak say hi kat org yg aku x penah kenal...so, it's true me

die start contact aku last year after kitorg ade reunion geng2 high school (TMS) on July if i'm not mistaken...1st die send msg thru friendster then die start nk jd friend aku kt FS...aku ok je...x kesah...after period of time, he request to add me as his friend in his ym friend's list...he add me, i just accept him and since there, we always chit chatting...talking about our own life...he got lots of things to share with...aku dgn rela hati dgr and pengalaman die best la penuh cabaran dan rintangan...even problem yg agak peribadi pon die sudi share ngan aku...ade gak la part yg die mengadu "something" about his life...xley nk gtau kat sni....too personal...

ym, ym and ym...after long time communicate thru ym, he asked me to gv him my phone number..as friend, i dont think i cant gv it to him...ala...kwn2 nak no. phone kan?normal la tu....start from that moment onwards, he became more caring...like a caretaker...dah la mase tu aku lonely...i'm all alone on that moment...aku dah rase pelik di situ tp x pk yg bukan2...open lagi la...aku mmg terima kasih byk2 kat die time tu....die mmg amek berat psl aku....x sangke gak la org laki mcm die leh caring mcm tu skali kt aku...sedangkan die x kwn sgt ngan gurls lain...aku dpt info ni pon drpd junior2 die yg stdy same2 ngn die kt INSTEP...junior ke?xla...same batch...cuma bdk tu muda setahun drpd die...aku pon jd rapat gak ngan bdk tu...mane x nye...most of the nite duk kakak kakak! kakak suke *** *** x?aduhai...akak xley jwb tu la dik oi...huhu..just forget about it...tp mmg geng2 diorg agak pelik la die duk ym ngan "a gurl"..x penah2 la kot kes ni berlaku...huhu...

in short, die ade la hint2 yg die ala2 suke aku..*blushed...wehee~~

tp aku x kenal sgt ngan die and i'm not a risk taker ok...lg pon..hati aku x stable sgt time tu..mcm dh blocking dh time tu...aku sedih gak la...tp aku x de la tolak die mentah2 mcm aku dh penah buat kt someone b4 this (during my school time)...tu zaman kanak2 riang..x pk perasaan org lain...bantai jerk xnak terima org...bkn jual mahal ok!just time tu aku xtau ape itu CINTA...

utk tidak wat org terus mengharap, aku buat citer yg aku in a relationship with someone padahal mase tu aku dh break dh pon...sori la...tu mmg aku tipu...dan tu la yg buat aku rase bersalah ya amat...tp aku tipu pon utk kebaikan semua pihak...aku tanak die kecewa at the end...aku bkn x suke die...suke je..tp just suke utk buat kwn...kenot more than a friend la...sejak tu die mule menjauhkan diri...obviously lak tu....mmg nmpk la...may be sbb die x bese nk handle feeling2 nie...

lame gak la die senyap...tetibe die muncul kembali mcm xde pape yg terjadi...emm...aku try la buat mcm xde pape gak...serius, lame beb die majok ngan aku..aduhai...kental gak la die ni...aku msg x lyn tu...aduh...aku mmg rase bersalah gile r time tu...tp xkan nk tarik blk kot statement rekaan aku semat-mata tu lak kan?kenot!

last 3-4 months die ade berterus terang sesuatu kt aku..thru ym...mse tu die kt Perhentian Island...diving...die bgtau actually dh lame die usha aku...since form 2..tp x berani nk tegur...die ckp dulu aku slalu wat muke ketat..sekali sekale senyum manis gak la...aummm...kembang gile aku time tu...haha....koya2..ok2...back to the story...kitorg dh ok time tu...die x marah aku dh kot time tu...last month, die ade call aku..siap pinjam no maxis kwn die lg tu...die pakai celcom...cost ckit la contact aku kan..since aku kan pelanggan setia maxis...huhu...die top up RM30 kot...die kol aku 3 kali kot...1st tu jap je...yg 2nd and 3rd tu lame r...yg last call dlm sejam lebey gak la...he wants to settle everything with me...tp still leh gelak2 lg la...die ade gak la ngadu psl back pain die tu...then aku duk pujuk2 gak la die g check kt doc...die duk asyik amek pain killer jerk...just utk tahan sakit je..pastu sakit lg..even duk dlm lecture hall pon die sakit2...kesian gak la...

pastu senyap...ade la comment2 thru FB..aku tanak la putus kawan terus kan...mcm x bgs gak kan putus kwn?for me la...dont know others...and surprisely, tonite he buzz me!

intro as usual...good sign!hehe...die ok...mcm xde pape jerk...tetibe die mintak permission aku nk tanye sesuatu..and more tu nak mintak pandangan and some advice...aku tye la skop ape kan?die jwb, psl tino laa...opsss...gurl??haha...yes!finally, he found someone...aku gembira die tanye aku psl gurl...even aku x confirm lg tino tu utk gf ke mak ke kakak ke nenek ke mak cik ke hape kan?tp seriously, deep into my heart keep saying that he opens his heart now...hehe...bla bla bla...aku just ckp la ape2 yg patut kan...tp ssh ckit la nk ajar coz aku side pompuan...mane la nk pro ngan bab2 nk pikat gurl nie...aku just ckp, kalo aku...aku tertarik kt guy yg ala2 caring gitu dan yg xmudah putus asa..that's the key word....for me la...

die blur coz die sgt x berani...dan aku ade gak mention yg actually the words "I Love You" is not the main idea...may be pendekatan lain lg berkesan....

dh lewat dh then die lapo nk carik kepsi...so die kuar...tetibe aku termenghayati lagu VE titled IZINKAN...ish...tgk2 kt lirik die tu cam sesuai je utk kwn aku yg sorang nie...then aku terus msg die...hehe..share this with him....who knows thru song, leh menambat hati sang puteri..kan?aku suke die jumpe org yg die suke....

p.s: semoga beliau menemui insan yg mampu membahagiakan dirinya...tiada yang lain, hasrat aku just nk tgk die bahagia....just that...dont give up my friend...

My 1st Beau

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yurp...he was my first beau....no others guy come and placed in my heart longer than him...my love, my friend, my playmate, and also my arch-enemy ;)

for real, he is my lovely lil bro....die lah org 1st yg panggil aku "kak sue"...kalo xde die, may be aku over manje kot..mane x nye...anak bongsu dlm family la katekan...syukur coz die wujud dlm hidup aku...die lah yg buat aku jd kental...tabah...cekal...sume la yg positif2 tu...ye la kan..kakak...takkan la nk tunjuk manje depan adik nye lak kan...ntah pape la kakak yg spesis camtu...x remaje langsung..wehee~~

during my childhood, he was the only one my playmate yg paling setia la ngan aku...got another one..tp abg aliff (actually younger than me, 18yrs old) x lame lepak ngan kitorg..die ikut papa and mama die pindah Melaka....ckmff gak la yg maintain until now.... :)



some pic of him

ketika zaman kegemilangan beliau ;)

current pic of him....he just share with me a moment ago :)

ni la lil bro aku yg lg besau dr kakak nye yg kiut miut ini..wehee~~~